They done hurt every damn feeling I have. Whaddo I do with that?
If you wanna be snarky about others’ faith and be some type of ugly, feel free. This probably isn’t for you than
I’m just venting to lemmy friends I guess, but hoping someone understands. Why does god have to be such a cunt sometimes?
Hurt my feelings more than I’d like to admit


I heard a Jewish rabi recently say the tetragrammaton more accurately translates to, “I am becoming what I am becoming,” and that rang true for me (I’m not Jewish either). So I’m that sense, G-d is also in development.
Anyway, I spent decades really mad at G-d. I had the opportunity to get off to myself for a few months and had a lot of talks with G-d about it, and eventually become at peace. Just talk. Write. Remember “Jacob” means "wrestled with G-d.’
Thank you. I’m just tired my friend, and trying to keep up. My soul’s heavy and I can’t always figure out how to float. I guess I am becoming what I’m becoming, and I hope it’s good… but fuck, it’s exhausting
Appreciate the Jacob analogy; it’s hopeful? I can’t wait to rest my head, but I just have so many years to go it seems. C’est la vie, at least my anger can rest tonight
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https://www.poetryfoundation.org/poems/42891/stopping-by-woods-on-a-snowy-evening