i can say tight circles, as example HR will do background check for their employees and your future relationship will also do that as well.

thats what i am trying to do but still fail to do so, else i dont have to deal with my anxiety disorder

yeah i think you are right, although i prefer learn it from other people, i just dont want more troubles

yeah i prefer home workout since its expensive and far away. hope it will helps, thanks.

i think thats part of my problem, i dont really like myself tbh, i done lot of mistakes to the point its hard to love yourself.

yes i know i am not alone, but still the thoughts of having those mistakes and burden is really exhausting.

i done lot of stuff until now, but i still remember those mistakes i did decades ago.

yes it did make better decision but if it makes me having anxiety disorder, i prefer to forget it.

yeah i dont think i can do that, i prefer playing safe.

thats amazing comeback, and i am glad that you able to do better at new job

unfortunately some of mistakes has lasting effects to society, as example you done a mistakes that ended up destroyed trust of your career or relationship, your reputation hurts everytime you gonna start over.

people already label you as bad person due to your past mistakes.

well i am not neurodivergent, i did talked to my therapist and he gives me medication to help me sleep.

i did learn from it of course, but life just that cruel, they keep giving you new problem that ended up becoming mistakes.

unfortunately i live in middle of busy city with no nearby forest or even park, its all just buildings with pollution everywhere.

thats the problem, i am having hard time forgive others, i even still cannot forgive the one that bullied me decades ago

what happens to you? having scars sucks, i do have it too and it looks ugly

i prefer cure, i am tired with medication and regular meetup with my therapist every week

unfortunately lot of stuff happens even with careful planning, its like destined to be doomed. learned from experiences.

well everytime i see my burn scar, it reminded me of how painful and traumatic event it is, and anger me so much because its not my fault that i get those burn, this is why i prefer not to remember it and avoid it as much as possible.

yeah i hate barber nowadays having bad massage and still doing it without permission, which means everytime i got haircut, i have to remind them to no massage. also its simple to stuck in negative loop, when bad luck streaks happens like this, it feels like you are not safe and can be attacked again.

i am actually diagnosed with anxiety disorder and depression, and i still battling it for awhile. i even have medication that i takes daily so i can sleep and this bad luck streaks is not helping at all. to be honest, it is difficult to look forward something when you are in situation like this, i just dont expect much anymore.

also i still pretty naive, i want to meet good people without meet bad people, its like i just want sweet thing without bitter, when something bad happens, i will always blame god or whatever thing that let this happens to me.

i am just tired, for me too much bad thing happened this year, its one problem after another. whats point of life when what awaits you is another problem right? i dont mind having peaceful and boring life actually rather than life full of problems.

well no problem, most people spend their weekend doing something fun anyway.